Horrifying.


I feel horrified.
I did not do anything that would justify G treating me the way he has.

I was never unkind to anyone, talk behind anyone’s back, disrespect anyone, cheated on anyone…

I do not deserve one more ounce of manipulation, emotional demands…any demands.

He does not deserve one more microgram of my energy. Not one breath in his direction.

His insecurity is not my insecurity. His fears are not my fears. His need to prove something is not my need to prove something.

I didn’t have to prove anything but that I loved him and I did that thousands of times, tens of thousands of times, hundreds of thousands of times. Funny how he didn’t see it.

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About wonderfulshantelle

Journey To My Wonderful Self

Posted on December 29, 2014, in 12-step, AA, Addiction, Adult Children, Alanon, codependence, Domestic Violence, emotional abuse, emotional sobriety, Inner child, recovery, Relationship, Uncategorized, withdrawal. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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