My response to the conditioned voices and reactions that I have is to make myself work hard to ignore my visceral experiences and feelings as I go through my waking hours.
I am human and therefore I hurt and cry and anger and react…
I don’t want to ignore my human reactions. Hurting and crying and getting angry and reacting are brilliant part of who I am. It is the controlling/tempering/refusing of these things that makes me (feel like) a monster.