This is an example of a list of notes I wrote myself while trying to work one day:
-Things I don’t have to think about while I’m working: what I”m going to do tonight (meeting, exercise? school/course-work? laundry?), G, travel plans, what I’m going to cook at home…
Everything is in the way of my writing my dissertation. I let everything get in the way…
One of my colleagues: can he send me something I can send to students for their reference?
* I spent money today to feel comfort, to feel deserving, to cater to my tastes, to feel like I have a choice and control, to feel like I am not deprived.
A parent would remind me: ‘don’t eat a whole bag of candy’, take breaks when you’re working, meditate during the day, listen to your feelings.
things I can’t do today because I am too busy with work: walk, swim, stepwork, videogame
I was not born to help my mother. I was not born to ‘be there’ for her. That is not my one and only purpose. I was not born to support her. I was not born to pick up other people’s slack. I was not born to… What WAS I born for?