I was at my therapist’s a couple of week ago and she said – love for you is intrusion.
I totally see that. Love is imposition and intrusion and sucking the life out of you…
I don’t know how to do it another way. How to receive it another way.
I feel my neediness. It’s just in me, not even me asking people for things, it’s me needing some kind of emotion i.v. I really don’t like that feeling.
NOrmal distance feels a little lonely, especially when it is in the context of an intimate relationship.
I can barely imagine what I need these days. All I want is silence. But I cannot listen to or hear my own thoughts and feelings.
It’s absolute torture.