Remember


I was at my therapist’s a couple of week ago and she said – love for you is intrusion.

I totally see that. Love is imposition and intrusion and sucking the life out of you…

I don’t know how to do it another way. How to receive it another way.

I feel my neediness. It’s just in me, not even me asking people for things, it’s me needing some kind of emotion i.v.  I really don’t like that feeling.

NOrmal distance feels a little lonely, especially when it is in the context of an intimate relationship.

I can barely imagine what I need these days. All I want is silence. But I cannot listen to or hear my own thoughts and feelings.

It’s absolute torture.

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Posted on September 28, 2012, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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