I Do meditate: surprise surprise.
I lived with mother based on her beliefs just like I lived with g. Not my feelings, their beliefs. My insides cave in when I say that.
I did express my feelings when I sat up in that tree.
I wish I could do that now too. Because that is the only outlet I know. But now I have to handle my anger like an adult. That sucks. The easiest would be to sit in a tree and call them an asshole.
Thank you, today.