How to live with the peace I feel after a meeting.
Difficult. Calmness feels unstable.
Last night I took a quick stroll around the block and then sat on the front step for a bit. I could have sat there all night. The problem is that I didn’t have time. I had to work before I went to bed.
In order to feel my feelings and let the peace last I think I need to sit for as long as I need to. Without a time limit. I really need to do that. Every time I get up prematurely, before I am finished enjoying the calm, I feel like I sabotage myself. I need to take a day off. I need to book free time, unstructured empty time.
Scary. Not doing something usually feels like I am useless and empty.