How to live with the peace I feel after a meeting.

Difficult. Calmness feels unstable.

Last night I took a quick stroll around the block and then sat on the front step for a bit. I could have sat there all night. The problem is that I didn’t have time. I had to work before I went to bed.

In order to feel my feelings and let the peace last I think I need to sit for as long as I need to. Without a time limit. I really need to do that. Every time I get up prematurely, before I am finished enjoying the calm, I feel like I sabotage myself. I need to take a day off. I need to book free time, unstructured empty time.

Scary.  Not doing something usually feels like I am useless and empty.



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Journey To My Wonderful Self

Posted on August 28, 2012, in codependence, emotional abuse, Relationship. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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