How Was I Using Him?


I believed that I was keeping from him how unhappy I was, how much I didn’t like the things I was doing… If he just thinks that I want to be with him he will keep coming back. I didn’t want to be around all of the things he was doing though… I believe(d) I wanted to be around him and I didn’t want to be around the bs. I thought, if he just knows I want to be with him and that is more important than telling him how much I dread coming home to to drunkenness, dread him sneaking, lying, manipulating… I lied. And I thought lying about it, puttin of my own comfort, was going help…

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Posted on August 4, 2012, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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