I Did Virtually Nothing to Protect Myself, or Value Myself
– I was still there
– I stayed and didn’t do what I needed to do.
It is so hard for me to take care of myself… I make such horrendous trade-offs.
And I want to blame G because he watched me do all that and took advantage…
But it was all me. I made the decision(S)… All of them. Every single day. That is why the audio is so valuable right now. Because I can hear myself do nothing, over and over again…! It’s preposterous. It’s terrifying. It’s devastating. It’s absolutely sickening to hear what I do and do not say. I am sooooo aghast. Just like I’ve felt for weeks. I shouldn’t be let outside. I am a danger to myself.