I have to face the truths every day so that I can get past them
– the struggles, the denial, the lies… All mine and his.
– I am afraid to go off thjnking I am ok and he is not. I’m not ok. I’m getting ok in lots of little ways, but I’m not ok. I have to sort through that.
– I am… Willing to… Change.
He said if we just ride the wave everything will come out ok… But I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop because of his bad decisions.