Big revelations…


Where does it come from. How do you know if you love. Not if you love someone, just if you love…? When you have shown caring and affection in a situation where you so much didn’t want to, how do you know that it is real when you are giving it in the right circumstances?

I had to show love and affection even if I didn’t feel like it when I was at home. Maybe because my mother had to give me more than she was capable of, she communicated that I had to do the same… But I was capable… it translated from her that I had to give love, affection, patience, attention even if it wasn’t warranted, because she had done so much for me. I was supposed to ignore her mistakes, bury the hurt and loneliness. If I take my love, attention, affection away from someone that hurts me or does not make me happy I am a terrible person, because she had to give what she wasn’t capable of. I had to at least give without warrant because she was depleted…


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Journey To My Wonderful Self

Posted on January 4, 2012, in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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