About My Self
It is July 18, 2015, and I am updating this Front Page of my blog for the first time since I began it…almost 3 years ago!
This blog is about me. And therefore, like I am, it is both complete AND a work in progress. The first time I wrote this opening entry I wrote, “This is a risk. This page. Because I don’t really know about myself.” I no longer feel that the blog is ‘risky’. It is one of the ways I have brought my Self back into a state of life and living these last couple of years. As some of you have already read here, I am codependent, and I have ‘gotten along’ in life according to my understanding of what other people need from me as well as what I think other people know of me. My experience of life has shifted, thankfully! I have begun to truly understand and believe that what I know of myself, what I experience of myself is the most important information I have about how to live my life, and how to live with and love others. For the longest time looking at My Self felt selfish, and scary. I admit that sometimes my spiritual work certainly resembles a lot of navel-gazing. But that has been necessary. Because I have had to learn to be personally accountable and personally responsible for my feelings, for everything about me. Because that is my most important job on this planet. I had to look backwards and inwards in order to move forward. The disorientation is subsiding bit by bit, however. And I feel some forward and upward momentum. For the fun of it maybe check out of couple early posts and then jump forward bit by bit. It’s been quite a trip down memory (trauma, recovery, and growth) lane. Thank you to all of you out there who have followed, liked, and commented on my blog contributions. I am fortunate to have learned from you beautiful people some of the most underrated lessons – that I have the need for real love, I have have real love to give, and that I am not alone. And no matter the ups and downs of life, I am always a being of beauty on this planet.